Chadstone shopping, a little insecurity, a little argument

Friday was the shopping trip to Chadstone shopping centre my mum, Tigger and her housemates. Dropped off the CD with the edited photos to the media room before we left round 9.30am plus. The journey was as usual long and tiring and we finally reached Chadstone at round 11.30am plus I think. It was really large and there were lots of food stalls and of cause loads of shops as well. Due to Tigger's craving for sushi, we all had sushi for lunch which was quite nice actually...

Anyway shopping was split up into 3 groups with my independent mum going off alone, me with Tigger and her other 2 housemates together. Went shopping crazy again today and got great bargains from MNG, Sports Girl, Esprit, FCUK etc... The feeling of contentment was indescribable with so many new stuff even before I go Sydney this Monday. Couldn't talk to Ph again the whole day since last night as he said the network was really poor at the place he's in now. But I couldn't help wonder how come a handphone could have the reception to ring but can't hear anything at all when answered and can't even send a little short msg. How come he can't even bother to lend his friend's hp just to make a short call because I do believe the main problem lies in his own mobile instead. Tigger told me not to be too sensitive cause she noticed I had change the wallpaper on my mobile phone.

Back home at round 8pm just now and was really tired. Though I got his msg earlier it didn't really help much cause talking to him would have really been much better. Had wanted to use the car on Sunday to pick Denise and mum to church cause I feel bad always having to trouble Tigger, but unexpectedly something happened that really pissed me off. One of the so-call owners of my boyfriend's car actually told me she had the priority to hog the car because Ph got the car to compensate them. I had thought the car was free to use during his whole trip cause he said it was ok and now I couldn't even use it for ONE day! It would have been better if he had gave them the $500 each and bought a car for himself rather than having people think he's obliged to let them use his car now. I wouldn't have been so angry if she hadn't had been so selfish and showed some concern and finding an alternative instead of assuming she totally owns the car.

Just when you most needed that someone, he/she always cannot be reached. I felt so down when my mum sarcastically said I was so useless in arguing with people. That just wasn't me cause I don't like to blow things up. Another reason that I hate to admit was that I actually didn't have faith in Ph; meaning I have no idea what his thinking is at all and whether or not he'll stand up for me during situations like this... Anyway, I don't need people to think I have to be so hard up for a car. I could get one if I really pestered my parents; guess ill just return him the spare key when he returns and want to have nothing more to do with it... (*r*)

Ph gone a day for his Trip, Settling Stuff @ Uni and Home hooked on my laptop

Yesterday my mum went to Morwell shopping herself cause I wanted to go check out if there was any help needed for the next issue of the EMIT newspaper. Before that I went to settle some stuff like posting letters for myself and Ph. I actually printed out a copy of the "Bac. of Computing" Honours application form, filled it up for Ph and posted it without his knowledge. There was no harm in just applying since there was no fee process charges. I'm so naived actually to still be thinking of ways he could stay on in Gippsland for his honours. He's going to kill me if he knows about it... I'm still keeping my fingers crossed (^x^)

David and Kevin were at the Media rooms doing the layouts and stuff when I got there and since there was no extra computers to used, I just help with some article editing before I got the list of photos from David that I could help out with the Photos Designing. And so the afternoon was spent surfing the net looking for photos and also creating a deviant art gallery account to upload my pieces of work. Got a msg from Ph at round 8pm saying that he had reached Adelaide. Really miss him very much even though he had been gone for only less than a day...

The morning was awoken around 7am plus by the sound of my handphone message tune. I had a gut feeling that it was my Ph and true enough it really was. His messages were always sweet; This one was even sweeter because besides telling me he had safely reached the some desert, the message ended with a "Love U.." I rubbed my eyes to see if I was dreaming, and nope I didn't see wrongly. I called him immediatly caused I miss hearing him so much and we chatted for awhile before I went back to sleep. Oh god, this made me miss him so much more... (@_@)

Mum's Arrival, City Shopping & Treasuring Few Moments...

Got up @ 4am monday morning due to the pill effects again. Picked up Denise at round 5.35am and we started our journey down Melbourne Airport. Was really grateful that she came got up so early to acccompany me on the long and tiring journey. Boy, only now I do realise the tiredness and strain of driving long distance. The trip to airport took round 3 hours due to the office hours jam in the morning. Picked mum up round 8.15am and with some directions from Tigger plus my instinct, we managed to find the Crown Casino carpark. Lucky the parking was a $7 flat rate so it was not so bad after all; We then took a tram down melbourne central.

Guess I was trying to reward myself after exams, so much so that I spent $200 plus in a day. As usual I couldn't control myself at Smith Street, especially at the Adidas and Nike stores. Fell in love with a "Just Jeans" jacket and just had to get it, cost me $80 bucks! The drive back gippsland was also a tiring one and I have to admit I almost fell asleep cause the sky was already dark on our way back. Couldn't wait to see Ph when he got back and was happy that he actually said he it was weird without me around him. He had gone for a 2D1N trip to Lake Entrance with his friends.

Spent the last 2 nights at his place cause he was going to Alice Springs(This time for 10days) with another group of friends. He just left awhile ago and I kind of miss him already. Well I have to get used to it because soon it'll be 5mths before we ever meet again. Helped him pack his stuff yesterday and later went on to cook dinner for the 3 of us. (My mum, Ph and myself). Didn't really sleep well last night and darn, it's only 7am plus now and I can't sleep already so here I am... online again... ***(@+@)***

Budget Car Rental, Sunday Mass & "Room Alone" Night

Finally confirmed when I wanted to go Sydney and booked my flight for my mum and I with Virgin Blue for departure on 28 June. God, the fare costs a total of AUD$448 for 2 people's 2-way ticket which is considered quite cheap here but costs like $1200 ringgit man! Anyway, that still excludes the accomodation and shopping... Hmmn, holidays always cost a bomb. Woke up like 7am this morning cause the lady from Budget was picking us up at 7.30am. Had to collect the car because Im going down to Melbourne Airport to pick up my mum who's arriving tommorrow at 6.45am. Lucky Tigger's around to go down with me so I won't be so lonely throughout the journey...

Called Ph up before I went to Church because he was going to Lake Entrance with his friends. **Sob Sob**, =( first time in so long he'll be away from me one night. Well, I kind of didn't really feel much cause I wanted some time for myself too. Not that I didn't miss him, but I've got to get used to not having him around soon anyway. Wanted to get some sleep in the afternoon, but instead went to Midvalley with Denise and believe it or not, I drove down a second time to Midvalley with my housemates for another round of shopping and dinner just an hour after I got back. The mitsubishi magna was really comfortable and grand - wished it were mine forever.. haha, there I am dreaming again..

Got a msg from Ph just now and he said it was just so weird without me around. Hmmn... My ex's mother called me in the afternoon and we chatted awhile. She didn't know that her son and I had broken up till I told her. Guessed he didn't want to tell his mum much. Anyway, she asked if I had another BF, I wasn't scared to deny cause she should know her son and I are just not compaitable and the kind of attitude he has. Arghh, gotta go check out the Melway book to familiarize the road to Melbourne Airport and also the way to Crown Casino plus Chadstone. Yeah, so happy can see my mum and can happily go shopping to any place I want with the car and no need to worry about having to rush for the bus or train and the amount of things to carry. Wish me luck in driving in the city tommorrow! (^v^)

3D2N Trip to Grampians & Shit! I need to diet, I've put on weight!

Just got back from the Grampians trip a 2 hours ago and couldn't wait to update my blog. The trip was a fun and unforgettable one, not only because it was my first holiday after exams but it was because of "he" who went with me. It was actually my real first time driving long distance for 2 hours non-stop due to the long 6 hour plus trip in which we had to take turns driving to and fro. Reached Grampians at round 5pm plus on Wed and checked into a place called Halls Gap Caravan Park. The accomodation was a special one because we were staying in a caravan and the beds, kitchen and dining table was all together in one place. Went with Ph, mike, kim and shiho and we went for a walk around the area after checking in. As usual there were convenience and souvenier stores plus some restaurants. Didn't do much on the 1st night because most shops were closed and it was already dark. Had take-away dinner and night was spent chatting, playing cards and having red wine to keep us warm. It was really freezing and definitely much colder than in Gippsland and everyone couldn't sleep well at night because the heater wasn't really working and the beds were just too cold...

Woke up at round 8.15am on thurs morning and went to bath. Took a long time cause the lights were out in the toilet and after everyone got ready, it was already 10am plus before we left the caravan. Went first for a 1 hour plus drive to "Hollow Mountain" and had a really good and challenging mountain climbing. The view was not too bad from above and we started taking pictures all along the way. Next was to "Boroka Lookout" but the afternoon was too foggy, thus we couldn't see any nice sceneary at all. So we headed on to "Mackenzie Falls". It was a high waterfall in which we had to walk down quite a dist, to the base but, it was quite a worthwhile walk as the waterfall was lovely. Night fell again soon and we had dinner at one of the restaurants there. The food was really great and the desserts as well; was expensive but worth it. Everyone wrapped in thicker clothing that night and bunked in earlier cause we were al tired.

Fri was first to "Reeds Lookout" and there were special rocks along the footpath with a peculiar large one at the lookout called "The Balconies" which looked like a dragon head. Next was back to "Boroka Lookout" again cause we wanted to get a better view in the sunshine this time. And luckily we went, cause the view was really splendid as we could see the whole of Halls Gap, the mountains and lakes around. We were supposed to leave early but in the end still went ahead to Silver Band Falls(another special waterfall with a streak of water coming down) and another lake(I forgot the name) for more photo-taking. Left Grampians at round 2pm and lunch and dinner was McD before we reached back Gippsland at round 8pm plus.

Was really happy throughout the trip cause it was a first holiday with "him" and even though there were other friends that went along, it was overall still fun. However I couldn't help but felt sad when I looked at all the photos, I realized that my face was real round and I had really put on some inconsiderable amount of weight which made me feel so ugly as compared to the photos I took just 1 month ago. Shit, I guess it's all because of "ai qing de zhi run" and the stupid exam pre-weight gaining blues. No, Im going to diet and get back to my usual self or even thinner if I can. Im not gonna risk getting fat and ugly again, especially when he's thinner than me. Though he's sweet enough to say he doesn't mind, that would not stop me, so "gambate" to my dieting! =) Have to go sleep now, really tired after the trip... Zzzzz (-,-)