My new Jay Chou album, another retail therapy, sometimes love ain't enough, mix feelings and missing so much back home.

Currently Listening to: Jay Chou ~ Still Fantasy Released: Sep 2006

I promise you this would be a slightly exceptional post. Why? Because apart from showing the usual shopping I've done, and all the other "not-so-interesting" events I've been to, I would also pour out some feelings and thoughts deep down from my heart. Event's don't seem to be really fun anymore because it's the crowd that matters sometimes and not the actual event. A group of besties is enough to make a boring musical sound extremely wonderful. Anyway, just some more retail therapy last Saturday because Tubby went to play cricket for the University Team and he went for the whole day. So that was the only thing someone lonely can do to ease the boredom, plus not all were mine, the cargo pants was for Tubs. I was quite proud though that he actually scored the last 3 winning runs. *Cheers to the team and I hope they win for the next few matches as well.

So there was the Japanese fair that went on last Sunday as well. It was a Cultural event organised by the Latrobe Valley Council in conjunction with some other organisations, one of which was the Uni. There were stalls selling Japanese Kimonos and Haoris, handbags, purses, small figurines, paintings as well as japanese food like sushi, pancakes and takoyaki. Of course there were performances like Judo, singing jap songs by the 3 pretty ladies dressed in the Azuka costumes or something etc. We didn't really spend much time there, but the short amount of time was enough to have made me buy two kimonos. I contemplated getting a Haori as well, like the one Sheali got, but it was $20 each and so I thought otherwise.

Well the rest of the week didn't turn out too well although I was really happy my pal sent me the new Jay Chou CD from Singapore. It was always a good and bad thing when I listen to new chinese albums that he sent; I'm soo happy to have the latest albums of S.H.E and Jay Chou, but they bring lots of memories and things I miss back in Singapore. And to make things worse, it reminds me of the gap between tubs and I; about how he doesn't know how to appreciate the chinese songs that I so very much love. Somehow this added on to the further distance which we had developed during the last few weeks. It felt really weird, it was like the songs threw me into a world of my own which I felt he didn't belong to. I don't deny I had started to lose some of the feelings I used to have. I know this sounds startling cause everyone always seems to think we are such a lovey dovey couple. In the perfect world, I would love my BF to be able to sing chinese love ballets for me everday apart from being charming, loving and romantic plus all the etc etc of built, figure, size and looks. But that would be in a perfect world and in this world, nothing is perfect.

I really miss being back in Singapore/Malaysia sometimes, back where all the fun and laughter is, where my family and friends are, where I can get my newest Jay Chou or S.H.E myself, where... It can get really lonely here sometimes. Everyone misses Gippsland when they graduate, that's because they have all the friends, fun and laughter, but you never get to experience the loneliness after everyone has gone back to their home country after they graduate. Anyway, I wouldn't put all the blame on Tubs, we were pretty fine when we had lotsa friends around us and I think we are now in a stage of being too much in a comfort zone when everything gets mundane and routined. I still wanna try and make the relationship work if possible. So we got together on Thursday to make sushi together, and I brought some for my colleages as well the next day. It tasted pretty good and looked quite alright; not too bad I guess for a first attempt. Anyway, I am looking forward to going back Singapore/Malaysia in December even though I'll be only back for less than 2 weeks. Should have enough time to meet up with close friends that matter, and to stock up on my chinese songs and movies as well, although I really wished I could stay longer to catch the S.H.E concert.

Anyway, one of my loves keeping me sane here in Gippsland, besides Tubs, Sheali, Gee, Lily, Audrey, Nancy and James is my darling Jasper! Look at how much he has grown! Also looking forward in the nearer future for Joewiz and Len to come back here for a visit. We are gonna have a pyjama party or something, as well as a photoshoot which I hope all of us can attend, I sure can't wait for that! Till then, hope I can stay sane enough to wait...

Food Poisoning is Bad Bad Bad, MUGSU Awards Night, My Palm Z22 and Retail Therapy In Melbourne on Fri.

I just recovered a few days ago from food poisoning, followed by a damn fever and headache. It was one of those bad times when I actually had to take 2 days MC instead of 1. Damn bad luck especially it was just 1 day after I had signed my contract for Permanent Staff. Oh well, even though I was watching TV by noon on the second day, it was all good; finally some long rest and definitely a whole lot of sleep, sleep and more sleep during that time. Anyway let's get back to the important stuff. The Uni had the MUGSU Awards Night on 13 Oct and darling received 2 awards: Award of Appreciation for ISA President 2006 and Outstanding Volunteer for Education Collective 2006. I'm proud of him and we chuckled that we need our "Study" in the house next time for our Certificates and Awards Collection. Waha.. ;) Other than that, life goes on, work is usual and boring, nothing exciting yet although I would really hope my boss decides to take up the Vehicle Hire business. Then I'll be able to arrange the Hummers and Cadillac Limousines for Weddings, Debs and Events. OMG that would be so exciting! I'm still waiting. :/ Anyway, I should think its time I actually mention what my company is doing. We import vehicles from U.S., convert them to right-hand drive, and sell them. Yes, I mean those fine looking Hummer/GMC/Cadillac/Chevrolets that make guys go swooning. We also deal with 5th Wheelers or Caravans in simple terms, as well as speedboats. So I'm actually 1 of the only 3 ladies working there, which isn't too surprising.

Oh yeah, not to forget another latest buy -> electronic gadget -> Palm Z22. I was initially looking for a notebook on ebay. Yes, those that you write with a pen. But then the notebook search brought me to a Palm for some reason, so I took that as a hint, (ok NO maybe that was my excuse) and wanted to bid on one. But I couldn't have the patience to wait, so after work I went straight to Dick Smith to get one instead. Awesome little gadget with big functions all in one, and refinely designed externally for ladies. :) Ima enjoying the free e-books that come along with it, as well as the games and schedule planning, tasks, memo, expense budgeting functions etc that come with it.

Anyway last week, officially I only worked 2 days, cause on Friday I had arranged to take leave earlier to go down to DIMIA, Dandenong with darling. I wanted to get my VISA sticker for my PR and darling wanted to get his work visa. The joy of getting my PR actually hit in a little as I stared at the VISA with glee. -> Enter and remain as Resident ->No Conditions attached. And I gave darling a smirk look as I told him, "Man this is sooo cool! Next time when I fly back Melbourne and fill in the Customs Declaration form, I just need to tick the box "Resident Return"! Woohoo! :P And then I also wanna thank darling for shopping with me the whole day. Honestly I was buying like there was no tomorrow and the retail therapy helped overcome my sickness pretty quickly. I pretty much covered everything from tip to toe, *oopps* I forgot to include the hairband and the belt in the photo. Well I got the Clinique Tanning lotion cause it won the New Women's Beauty Awards and I really wanna get some tan so that my skin would not be so fair and I would look less chubby! heee.. Hope it works! The Bloom Body Shimmer smells fantastic by the way!

My YouTube Videos! Finally Uploaded...

Woohoo! I finally had time to upload the Videos of the perfomances I did during my time in uni. So as promised to dear friends, especially Len, here's the Culture Night 2006 performance video. For other music videos of mine, you can view it here

Special thanks to the people who help captured the moments: Churchill Idol 2004 (Denise I think), ISA Elections 2004 (Denise), Culture Night 2005 (Josh), Monash Open Day 2005 (Josh) and Culture Night 2006 (Joewiz) and Thanks to those who commented I can sing well in YouTube! Yeah! ;p

Royal Melbourne Show, Mooncake Festival, Ozzy PR, and is there something else in store for me?

I shall let the photos do the talking:

Weather was fine until it rained in the night, but it wasn't too cold or anything. Honestly, with the amount spent on the games just to win the Eeyore, I could have very well bought a much bigger version of the soft toy from the shopping centre. But it was the fun of playing and winning and I had to thank darling cause he finally managed to get it much with the pouting and sulking from me. *evil grinz* This year's show bags were much better, though of course the group we went with last year brought more fun and memories.


Thanks for chaboh loo, we had lanterns to play after our steamboat dinner last week. She even specifically bought Bubbles for Sheali and Pooh Bear for me. Gatherings like this are getting less and less and I really just wanna treasure whats left of the once "big gang" we had in Gippy.

Anyway, months of stressing and fretting paid off when I finally received my Aust. Visa Grant last Wednesday. Does Good news come in 2's or 3's? Well my current also company asked me to stay on as a permanent staff. And Congrats to Chaboh Loo for having found a job back home in Msia! So I should be really happy and jumping with joy about my stuff right? Or not? For some reason, close friends asked me, "How come you're not really excited and happy?" I don't know why. Maybe people are just not satisfied or maybe I just desire and miss city life or maybe I know I want something else that hasn't come to light yet. It may sound crazy, but I really miss the hustle and bustle of my previous work place even though sometimes we work 7 days a week and have to OT alot. I'm not the type who likes to get paid to laze around. So I'm really miss the busy life I had back in Singapore; after work, it was shopping with mum and my sis-in-law, and outing with pals, friends and colleages almost every night. I get none of that here. *sigh*

And next year when my S'pore PR expires, I'll have to fret about whether to go back S'pore work and renew my re-entry permit or just stay on Aust, leave it and lose my S'pore PR. Life is never rid of problems yeah? I can't help but feel sometimes I just don't want to be any normal person out on the streets. Celebraties get special treatment everywhere. We just watched "Devil Wears Prada" recently. And at the end of the movie, sheali, lily and me turned to ask each other, "If it were you, would you leave the job as P.A to Miranda for Runway?" We all looked at each other in the eyes and said, "NO! Definitely NO!" Maybe we are just career-minded girls? Or maybe we just want the fame and glamour. But honestly, who doesn't? So, even though things seemed more or less stabled now, I can't help but feel that God still has something else in store for me. And I hope it's something exciting and more life fulfilling. *Thank You God*

Rest in peace in the arms of God.

This month hasn't exactly been a good month. First Australia lost two of their great heros: Steve Irwin and Peter Brock, both just days apart of passing away. I would say Steve Irwin's death affected me more because just a week ago, I was just reading an article of his family and him, about their love and passion for wildlife as well as watching a couple of his shows on Animal Planet . I sobbed. I really did. You can find lots of videos of Tribute to them on YouTube. although some *axxholes* actually make fun of his death, there are some meaningful ones still. Then, just last week, one of my best friend's mother passed away as well. I met Auntie end of last year. She was battling cancer since the beginning of this year and I have been praying for her everynight since then. But I guess it was God's Will to take her away from her pain eventually. So they say, "A call in the wee hours of the night" is never good. It took a good 5 minutes after I hunged up for the news to sink it. Then I sobbed again. I was worried sick about my best friend who's so far away. And I still am.

R.I.P Auntie, Steve Irwin and Peter Brock